In the span of less than three years, I had met and married my husband and our three children were born. It was a profound blessing to now have these four beautiful souls in my life, to be surrounded by their energy, activity, and love.
It should have been a very happy time, but in truth I was completely overwhelmed and EXHAUSTED.
I had spent most of my adult life flying solo — I was used to a quiet life. My time had always been my own. It was a difficult transition to the demands of motherhood, giving all I had to taking care of my family and yet trying to hold on to some semblance of who I had been.
I didn’t know how to live this life. I was searching for strength, grace, and humor, but instead I was watching myself drown.
By the end of 2017, when our twins were eight months old, I hadn’t slept through the night in over a year, many days only getting three or four hours of sleep total. To say I was tired is an understatement.
I was not only physically and mentally exhausted, making it hard to stay organized and do the simple tasks of the day, but my emotions were completely out of control and it was hurting my relationships with my husband and my kids.
My life was consumed by household chores and caring for little ones — important work, but there were other parts of me that were calling for attention.
It was hard to keep up with any self-care practices I used to have, or to even find a quiet moment to myself to seek some sanity. I began to wonder if I would completely lose it. I was very tempted to run away (my usual answer to challenges in the past).
Finding my way through
I was not going to leave — I loved what I had! — but it was not ok for things to continue as they were. I was determined to figure out how to reclaim control over myself and my life.
I began searching out the support I needed: Family and friends to watch the kids so I could get out of the house for a while. A therapist to help me process the well of conflicted emotions, self-judgements, and uncertainties.
Most importantly, I learned to give my body and mind the deep rest it needed to feel functional again (whether I slept through the night or not).
I staked a claim on time to care for myself so that I would be able to show up for my family the way that I wanted.
Sleeping better and with a new rhythm established in my daily routine, I began to notice important shifts in my mood and overall wellbeing.
I was well-rested and full of energy, happy to take on the tasks of the day instead of feeling dragged down by them. I felt more emotionally balanced, better able to respond instead of react; my problem-solving and creativity flowed more easily; and I had more patience and humor with my husband and kids.
I could finally feel the beauty of the blessings in my life.
My promise to you
As much as food, shelter, and love, sleep is essential to true health and wellbeing. It is so important to me to help make sure that you have this key ingredient to living well.
If you are ready to make a change, it will be my honor to guide and support you through. Learn more about how we can work together to get you on the path to the good life you deserve to have.